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Entry Fifteen
Apr. 30th, 2008 09:20 pmI find myself spending a very large portion of each day in standby mode recently. When I am active, my daily routine consists of maintenance of the feline designated Shirou, regular study of the city's media, such as movies and television, and other assorted tasks depending on the day's condition.
As I am finding it increasingly difficult to obtain nourishment for Shirou and obtain new research material, I believe I require a job.
........................ I cannot help but feel............. I am unable to identify it..... I feel as if I am incomplete here. As if there is a portion of my existence that is absent......... A possible theory is that this feeling of emptiness stems from my apparent lack of purpose here...... The gnosis pose less than a 1% threat to the city's citizens, barring curses, and there are none here who truly require my protection aside from Shirou............ More often I question whether or not I should simply go into hibernation mode until I am needed...... Somehow I feel that would be...... Tragic....?
Or perhaps I lack the proper maintenance. There is no Vector personnel present in this dimension to properly administer repairs and upkeep to my systems, and I am left to administer these myself. This task has proven more difficult than originally estimated.
Perhaps.......... Perhaps it is Shion's absence from this plane of existence........... Am I.... lonely.......? I wonder.......... Does feeling this emptiness make me..... human.........?
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[OOC: I am DESPERATELY trying to keep this muse, but without a Shion or anyone, this is REALLY getting hard. SOMEONE PLEASE PICK THAT WOMAN UP, I KNOW SHE TURNED INTO A BITCH BUT SHE WAS OKAY IN GAME ONE, REALLY. AND SHE AND KOS-MOS MAKE SUCH A CUTE COUPLE ARRRRRRRRRGH LONELY ROBOT, PEOPLE. Also, if you won't give me that, at least give KOS-MOS an adorably retarded job, like a model or a cosplay maid at a cafe or something, I DON' KNOW, I NEED SOMETHING FOR HER TO DO.]
As I am finding it increasingly difficult to obtain nourishment for Shirou and obtain new research material, I believe I require a job.
........................ I cannot help but feel............. I am unable to identify it..... I feel as if I am incomplete here. As if there is a portion of my existence that is absent......... A possible theory is that this feeling of emptiness stems from my apparent lack of purpose here...... The gnosis pose less than a 1% threat to the city's citizens, barring curses, and there are none here who truly require my protection aside from Shirou............ More often I question whether or not I should simply go into hibernation mode until I am needed...... Somehow I feel that would be...... Tragic....?
Or perhaps I lack the proper maintenance. There is no Vector personnel present in this dimension to properly administer repairs and upkeep to my systems, and I am left to administer these myself. This task has proven more difficult than originally estimated.
Perhaps.......... Perhaps it is Shion's absence from this plane of existence........... Am I.... lonely.......? I wonder.......... Does feeling this emptiness make me..... human.........?
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[OOC: I am DESPERATELY trying to keep this muse, but without a Shion or anyone, this is REALLY getting hard. SOMEONE PLEASE PICK THAT WOMAN UP, I KNOW SHE TURNED INTO A BITCH BUT SHE WAS OKAY IN GAME ONE, REALLY. AND SHE AND KOS-MOS MAKE SUCH A CUTE COUPLE ARRRRRRRRRGH LONELY ROBOT, PEOPLE. Also, if you won't give me that, at least give KOS-MOS an adorably retarded job, like a model or a cosplay maid at a cafe or something, I DON' KNOW, I NEED SOMETHING FOR HER TO DO.]
